The Capacity

Different stages of life allow for different degrees of capacity.
The cup stays the same, but the contents change. They can swirl around or shift; sometimes they dilute, sometimes they compound, unexpectedly expand, or possibly dissolve entirely — leaving a feeling of emptiness.

At this stage, I don’t know which I prefer.

Over the last few years the cup that represents my creative capacity had no space to spare. It had runneth over, using it all up on professional matters. Every drop was a design for a marketing piece, an idea for an event, or a new initiative for team efficiency.

Now, it’s bone dry. And I am feeling unsettled by this extra space in the cupboard of cups.

I began this blog over nine years ago. It has started and stopped more times than I can count. Different timelines have lent way to varying degrees of capacity, and I don’t know how long I’ll have this feeling of opportunistic freedom. It could very well be fleeting, as one never knows what lies ahead — as things come up or go away.

From what I remember, this community has always been a sort of a judgment-free zone. We are welcome to come and go as we please. Today, I am very grateful I did not cancel my WordPress domain.

I hope I’ll be back soon.